one of these nights...

dear friends and family,

i am having one of these nights. where it is already long passed my bed time but i can't fall asleep. where my eyes are tired but my head is awake. where i feel i want to drag out this already passed day and stay up longer, and that way prolonging acknowledging that a new day has started.

tonight i have been asked to be part of a plant for someone's bachelor party and i was able to learn a very important lesson as a actress but also as a human being: expect nothing and be open for anything. i wrote down some ideas and thoughts i had of how i want to stage the whole thing meanwhile not knowing where it will happen and how the location is going to look like. so when i got there and started my plot with a set idea of how i am going to do it and where i want to go with this, i was blown away by the reality that people were reacting differently that i expected and thought of in the script. so it was awkward cause the other men who were in the bachelor party were not helping me at all. they were kinda taking me apart in midair. i mentioned to kinda plot through it and get out of the situation very soon. but of course i wasn't happy with the outcome... anyway, apparently they liked it and enjoyed it. my housemate was there with me and he said he was amazed i stuck with it for so long.

anyway, what i take out of this experience? 1. take an improv class as soon as possible.

2. embrace new situations and let go of attachment to something that not IS.

in that sense. good night.

may you be able to embrace the new and different.

may you continue to learn and discover

namaste,

jewels

the merchant on venice

dear friends and family,

this is my next project:

the merchant of venice

a KW Youth Theater production:

i am very excited. it is going to be an amazing show!!!

love and light,

jewels

magic on a sunday

dear friends and family,

i am writing you these lines from my comfy bed in my room. the window is open and allows a lazy breeze to come in and kiss my bare skin. someone is hammering, someone is mowing her lawn and occasionally there is a car driving by. the sky is grey and the trees dance in the steady wind that makes their leaves sing.

i am happy.

what a weekend it has been. rehearsal, fun people, magical moments, deep sleeps and good food. every so often i stop in the midst of my movement and am so full of joy and happiness that my heart seems to over float.

much ado finished last weekend and it was fun.

but i am also happy that it is over. too much drama behind the scenes and so many things not

taken care off... i love the

people i was working with but there was no real team effort = so it seemed to me. usually your fellow actors in the show as well as the crew become your family outside your own. you work together so closely and spent so much time together that it is almost natural. but with this production i didn;t feel it. it was a long rehearsal process until opening night with people dropping out of the show and having to be replaced and no real direction from the director. it was a little disappointing. and at the same time it was also great fun. i was able to wear long dresses and a wig!! yeah!

we did 1o shows and had a good audience most of the time. we never sold out but we always had people in the rows. sometimes they were laughing and with us throughout the whole show. sometimes we almost wanted to sent someone out there to check if they were still alive as they didn;t make any sound at all...:)

now i am focusing on my last show. the merchant of venice. we open in june. so a good month away from today. it is so much fun. our director is just wonderful and has a clear vision of what he wants to do with this show. so nice to walk into the rehearsal space knowing that there is already a plan for todays practice. we move along so beautifully. i love my fellow actors and i really like my role. i am playing portia!

also in a little over a month i will be leaving this country that has become my home over the last year. i am also leaving guelph which is such a beautiful place to live in. i am staying with my dear friends in minnesota for a couple weeks and then on june 28 i will be flying out of the us and head to germany!! yea, that's right i will be going back to see my lovely family and all my lovely friends!! at this point i am not exactly sure how long my stay will be. i would love to come back here. this is the life i always dreamt about. theater. english. canada. children. funky city. beautiful people. conscious lifestyle. i am happy here. but i am also open to whatever happens when i am back in europe. i still want to walk the camino and spent some time in beautiful la tranche sur mer.

we will see what the universe unfolds. i am embracing life. and the many choices i have. and will have.

namaste my friends.

may you feel bliss and joy in your heart and soul.

may you be loved and hugged and kissed,

may you send out your beautiful smiles to whoever you meet.

(like today on the street when i passed an older man in a wheel chair and he waved to me as if we knew each other. that made me smile. from one ear to the other.:))

love and light,

jewels