rain in guelph

dear friends and family,
i am writing you all from the public library in guelph. it is saturday and i just came from the market. my backpack is full of yummy local food and i am content.
i attended a yoga retreat last week. so every morning i biked to melina's house, the yoga teacher, and we medidated for 30 minutes and did yoga together. it was a nice group of 7 women. i really needed that space in the morning to calm my mind and find the balance i felt in costa rica. my mind was constantly rushing and throwing these issues at my heart. all theses decisions that i am suppose to make. I am still not home yet. meaning I haven't find a room yet that fit my criteria. and although i am trying to be patient and trusting I am tired. I am longing for a place to feel home and safe and settle. I am also not a hundred procent where I want to be in my job search and so my mind was just taking over in the last couple weeks drving me a little crazy. I know in my heart things will move and and work out but I am tired. I am tired of having my stuff spread all over town at different people's houses and I am tired of not knowing what contact address to give. I am tired at looking at rooms, trying them out and not feeling safe at the places i am.it really teaches me that home is something special.
i am trying to get my schedule changed that way i will only work during the week. i am watching rowan only once a week and then i want to try to find a job that really fullfuls me on another level . meaning dishwashing is fullfilling in many ways. don't get me wrong. for example by now i can totally read the dishwasher and its moods. i know even before the green light shuts off that the circle is complete just cause the sound of the motor changes.i am a professional now on how to coordinate all the other tasks around me. so now i can serve coffee, ring another costumer through, make more coffee, open the dishwasher so the dishes can cool off, wash the cheese grade machine that the kitchen likes to throw in my sink when there are already a million other things in it, clean the trash cans in the bathrooms, get more ice for the drinks, run downstairs and grab 8 tomatoes, 5 avocados, 1 bucket of tofu, 3 green onions, cucumbers, fruit salat and toilet paper. i use my hands, head, shoulder and arms to balance all the things will scrubing the floor on my way up. that's what i call multi tasking.
what i like most about the job is actually interacting with the costumer. that's what i really enjoy. by now the machine that is used to ring people through and i are on a semi-peaceful stand. before i would put things in and order stuff and it would just not do it or do sometung differnet or i wouldn't do it the right way and had to do it all over again while people were waiting in line. that is fun. and then all the different ways to pay. in the beginning i would look over my shoulder and check if the costumer has cash on her and if so i would run her through. if not and she was holding a credit card i would simply turn back to my dishes and ignore her working ficiously. casue there are different ways to handle the different cards. visa is dfferent from debit. one time you have to put the end in forst and then slide it through the other time you just need to slide it through twice.
oh well. my time here is almost up.
i am sending you all love and peace.
today to my sister in vietnam and my opi whose birthday is today. and to stream for being so wonderful.
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