happy october rain!

dear family and friends. i am sitting in my room, rain falls down outside, thunder and lighting are chasing each other. enya sings 'listen to the rain....here it comes again..'. i am happy. i purchased a beautiful old desk and chair this morning as well as some material to have a cover over my bed, some pillows and a blanket. my room smells like ylang ylang incense sticks and it reminds me of my old schoolfriend sara whose apartment smelt exactly like that. good memories. i love fall. i am getting ready to spent more time in the house and i just love decorating my room. i will pick out some paint in the next little while and paint the room. probably a greenish colour. i love fall for its smell. the leaves on the ground, the earth, the wind. and the feeling of making home comfortable so i can have tea, read a book or just look out of the window and watch the trees in the backyards move in the rain and wind. i love the feeling of being cold and coming home into a warm house. what a beautiful idea!!

i am so excited cause i am furnishing my room and it looks sooo lovely. and also my sister ramona is coming on tuesday. i just received the news today. i knew she was thinking of coming on oct 6 and i thought oh yeah, that is fine. it is such a loooong time away. well, it is tuesday. i am excited though. i haven't seen her for 2 years. i saw pics etc but i haven't hugged her for 2 years. and now she is coming in 3 days. she flies into toronto and i will pick her up at the airport. she will be here for a month until nov 5. i can show her my life and the people i love and live with. she and rowan were born on the same day. not the same year though..:)

steve and i were talking today about our minds. how they trick us into believing the thought that we HAVE to do something, always have to move and imrpve instead of simply being still. i talked to my dad today on skype (i was talking to the laptop screen. is that weird or what???) and he said that he doesn't feel like doing anything today but thinks he has to do at least SOMETHING. i think we all have these thoughts every now and then. i thought maybe we get more done if we don't do anything...

so i am enjoying myself listening to music and writing to you. it is dark already at 7:20pm. i will maybe ride by the cornerstone and have some tea and read. it really becomes my second home.

love you all.

i wish everyone a place besides from home where you can feel safe and where you are surrounded by wonderful people.

namaste,

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