AuditionBliss

I am so full

Of life

Right

Now

I can feel it pulsing through my veins

Up and down

And all around

In my body –

Oh theater

You are such a pleasure

To me

you lift me up

and carry me away

you transform me

into anything I

possibly

can be-

come.

You make me smile

And dance, and laugh out loud

Randomly

Making people stop on the street

And wonder what happened to that beaming

Creature….

What happened?

You happened.

The space

So full of magic

Ignites something

Deep in me.

The moment when I speak

in front of

people

who are giving me their full

Attention

And interest.

The air still

Until

I break

It

with words

Spoken by me

But coming from

Beyond

From the hemisphere

Of Language

So beautiful.

I would love

To liquefy it

And take a big sip

I think it would taste

Deliciously sweet

And refreshing.

Dripping speeches

Full of emotions

Feelings

Love

Hate

Anger

Fear

Joy

Despair

Anxiety

You encompass it all

You wrap it up

Into spoken shapes

Of beauty.

Thoughts

Become pictures

Living creatures

Just through you.

Oh theater,

Thou art my deepest desire

My life force.

The excitement

Before

A performance

My heart beating,

My body tingling

My hands shaking

Nowhere else do I feel

As close to being alive as

Then.

The air is filled with anticipation

As I wait alongside with

Other actors.

As my performance time

Comes closer

I close my eyes

And get lost in a whirlpool of

Blood rushing through my head,

My heart beating loud in my ears

The sound of it makes me

smile.

And then my name is called

The door opens

I enter.

I am present

This is it.

4 pairs of eyes are looking

at me

welcoming,

curiously.

I can see their interest

In the way the take in

Me

My body

My presence

Nowhere else do I find myself

Being so

Noticed

and

acknowledged.

I feel their

Anticipation.

I take a breath

Catch my running mind

Cause now I just

am

Whatever these words

I am about to speak

Want me to

Be.

And I start.

Beauty dripping down

From my mouth

In form of words

That roll of

My tongue

Filling out this magical

space

Taking their

place

amongst

All the other

Words which

Have been spoken here

Before.

If they could only reach

The audience’s ears

And ignite something

In their minds or

Bodies

That is all I want.

I already know

about the magic

these phrases are able to create

I leave it up to them now

To do

The same

In these people’s

Hearts.

I finish my lines.

I breathe.

It is spoken.

I can feel their

Presence

Now part of the room’s

Athmosphere

I set them free

Now may they rest

Amongst all the

Others

And delude

The next person

Who may enter

This secret space.

I leave

With a bright and glowing

Smile on my face

The outcome doesn’t

Matter at this point.

Thoughts and doubts

About what I could have done better

Will soon arise

But right now

My steps are light

I feel so alive

And happy

Like after giving birth

To a healthy

Beautiful child.

I just experienced

A miracle

Joy circulating in my body

Making me dizzy

And I feel like

I will overfload

If I don’t share

This

bliss

With people surrounding

Me.

So I do.

Smiles

so big they

Seem to spread from one

Ear to the other -

I give them

freely

To anyone I meet.

Sharing hugs full of

Love and life and joy with anyone

Who crosses my way

And cares to embrace

me.

Oh theater

Oh life

Thank you.

My heart beats

Every beat

Sings of gratitude

Fulfillment

Sunshine

Awesomeness.

Here I am

Jewels.