germany. day two.

hello my dear friends and family,
i am writing you this time for our basement, the fan is going and trying to make breathing easier for me. it is so hot here. it's about 1am german time and i can't sleep. hard to believe it is only 7pm back in canada. i already miss that country. and i miss english. i mean i am walking down these german streets and am still always amazed when i pass someone and that person speaks german with another person. like it is the most normal thing in the world. and it is. but for me it was always an excitement when i met germans on my travels and then was able to hear that familiar tongue again. and here it is all around me. i keep falling back into english and i miss speaking it all day long. my family is awesome though. they are very patient with me still starting to speak english mid-sentence.:) in general they are all just wonderful. so welcoming. they had a huge poster for me at the airport welcoming me back. so sweet. and shirts saying 'wanted' and my picture under it. i just loved it. driving back i was simply taking back by looking at german land. it seemed all so trangley familar but from so long ago. it seemed like i was dreaming. so unreal. and yet i was very present. hugging my sister felt so good. she is such a grown woman now. really nice. i feel very happy to be at her graduation ceremony on saturday. she is very excited. so am i. and i will see my grandparents soon. i am really excited about that as well. i spoke to my neighbor this morning who is now 21 and he is also all grown-up. it is so much fun to see people growing and evolving and becoming the person they want to be. i am so excioted to hear people's stories.
my body is still on canadian time in a way. i mean i am now wide awake while also feeling tired. did i mention it is super hot here??? my flight was wonderfully calm and relaxed. i saw the sun set and rise in a matter of hours. gorgeous. so much beauty on this planet. and then i landed in iceland where i switched planes and wow, what a beautiful place that is.
anyway, so now i am wide awake and it is night time here.
it is also weird to sleep in my old room again. so many memories. so many old spirits. i will buy some sage and help clear the space. plus i am going to get rid of a lot of stuff. so much easier now that i have lived without it for 3 years. i really don't need much to live. people. good food. theater.

i am sending you all my love.
may you be surrounded bz supportive people.
may you experience something new every day.
may we all keep being curious and embracing of new situations.
love, love, love,
jewels